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論苔絲之死
（作者未知） 2009/4/24
（接上頁）fortheGodagainsthimself’swill.Andhehopestodosomethingforthepeople.AngleexplainsthatinfacthedoesnotinfactwishtoentertheChurchlikehisbrothers,becausetheChurch’sviewsaretoostrictanddonotallowfreethinking.Itmakeshimtobetreacheryofhisfamilyandreligion.Hisopenmindmadehimtobelovedwithacountrygirl,whichisnotfitforherfamily.istheangleinTess’heart.HislovetoTessownsthepurityoffirstlove,fervorandimpressments.HeisdeeplydumpagedbyTess’puerility.Anglethinks“Whatafreshandpuredaughterofnaturethatdairymaidis!”Heseemstoremembersomethingabouther,whichbringshimbackintohappytimeinthepast,beforehisdecisionmadehislifeindilemma.ThismemorymakeshimpaymoreattentiontoTessthantheotherdairymaids.Inhiseyes,Tessistheembodimentofperfect.HeisconsciousnesswithrespectattitudeandsolemnmarriagetogetcontactwithTess.AfterrefusedbyTess,heinsiststowait.Hisdeterminationisdecisive.ClareisnotdepressedbyTess’refusal.AndhethinksthatTesswouldfinallyaccepthim.Butinthenightofthemarriage,afterknownthepastofTess,Angle,themanalwaysopenmind,wasfailedintothedeeplypain.Hewasinafflictedfromspirit.Hewouldbelievewhatshesaidisbogus.TimesandtimesheasksTesstodenythetruth.Andhedidn’tgiveherchancetoexplainthatTesswasthecasualty.Whenhesuedthesewereneverchanged,hechoosesescape,andhecan’tunderstandher.AfterTesstoldherstory,everythingischanged.Clarestirredthefire.Itwasunnecessary,buthefelthehadtodosomething.Hehadnotreallytakeninthewholestoryinitsfullhorror;hisfacewaslikeanoldman’s.Hemadeuncertainmovements,becauseeverythinginhisheadwasvagueanduncertain.Hecouldnotmakehimselfthinkclearly.“Tess!CanIbelievethis?Areyoumadperhaps?Mywife,myTess—youaren’tmad,areyou?”Hewastalkingbutcouldnotthinkatthesametime.Hisbrainseemedtohavestoppedworking.Heturnedawayfromher.Tessfollowedhimandstoodtherestaringathimwithdryeyes.Thenshewentdownonherkneesbesidehim.Inthechapter14,itisclear.Hewasrelievedtoseehersleepingdeeply.Andyethefelthealonehadthewholeworryofwhatactiontotake,andtheresponsibilityforherlifeaswellashis.Heturnedawayfromherdoor,andthenturnedbacka（未完，下一頁）
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